M-Day Weekend

I don't even feel like writing out the whole word. I had to pick out gifts for MIL, my mother and stepmother this week. Every time I go in the grocery store, I see all the flowers and balloons. My e-mail in box is full of M-Day sales notices. For me, it's just yet another holiday that I have to watch pass by from the sidelines.

My mood has been going progressively downhill all week and I have to think this has something to do with it. It isn't helped by the fact that I'm on cycle day 42 (no, I'm definitely not) and have been having PMS for about 2 weeks now. I've been on the pill so much lately in preparation for cycles that I had forgotten that going back to my long, unpredictable cycles which seem to be even more messed up after all the IVF's is not much better than dealing with the pill. I feel really good for about two weeks then PMS kicks in and that lasts for the 5 or 6 weeks it then takes for AF to show up.

I did decide to just not worry about the whole issue of my potential surrogate's husband. For one, I truly like her and can tell she wants to make this work for us. I do feel like I can trust her. I'm also going to go out on a limb and give her husband the benefit of the doubt. She's been married to him for a very long time so surely he has some good qualities. Maybe he was just nervous or uncomfortable with the whole situation. And, even if not, it just seems like he's not going to be playing much of a role in this process. As long as he's supportive of her (which I assume he is since she's done this 4 times prior), that's really all that matters....right?