Forgetfulness

I have so little hope for this upcoming transfer at the local clinic that I keep forgetting my surrogate is even preparing for it.

That caught up with me today when my surrogate called to tell me she got forms from the clinic in the mail to sign and wanted to know if she could just bring them with her to sign there. Suddenly, I remembered that my DH and I usually sign consent forms before they thaw the embryos and I hadn't received anything. Since they are only Day 2 embryos, they'll need to start thawing several days in advance.

So, I called the nurse there and, sure enough, they need us to sign consent forms and have them notarized and we need to get them back to her ASAP. She faxed them over to me.

Then, this evening my surrogate called me again and asked shouldn't she have progesterone since she needs to start it Thursday night after the lining check? Then, I realized we had never gotten a prescription from the nurse for the progesterone for her. She had leftover patches from last time so we got started with those then everyone forgot about the progesterone. She doesn't even have the lining check at the clinic where the transfer is being done. It's too far away so she's getting it done locally and they can't help.

This is so unlike me. I'm usually so on top of this kind of thing. Normally, this wouldn't be a huge dilemma because I could call my clinic tomorrow and have them send a prescription to an overnight pharmacy for delivery to her on Thursday. The problem is my surrogate works all day Thursday and no one will be home to sign for it. Everyone she knows is unavailable Thurs. as well. I live 2 hours away from her. I called a mail order pharmacy and they said that, no, progesterone shouldn't be sitting out in 80 degree heat for several hours so waiving the signature isn't an option. I need to find a pharmacy local to her that carries it but, of course, by the time we realized there was a problem all of the specialty pharmacies I tried calling had closed.

Hopefully, I can get this resolved tomorrow. I'm feeling really bad because my apathy is resulting in extra headaches for my surrogate. It's not just with the transfer. It's with everything lately. I forgot to pay a bill on time for the first time in I don't know how long. Our house is a disorganized mess. DH keeps trying to pack for trips and doesn't have clean laundry. The thing is it's not like I'm lying around in bed all day. It seems like I'm constantly doing something, but I'm just so unfocused and distracted lately that everything I do seems to take me twice as long. It's like I'm a hamster running around a wheel expending a ton of energy but not getting anything useful done. I don't know what is wrong with me.